Just came back from seeing a movie with my dearest
What an awesome and beautiful cinematography…
As we walked back home we discussed and exchange ideas
On what we thought of the movie, the characters and the story plot…

The development of the characters, and their impact
Their struggles, their pains and final triumph…
Gosh, as we talk a certain feeling gradually rise from within me…
Aha, I’m use to this feeling, but the intensity is growing…

Yes, it is that feeling of appreciation…
Appreciation of something or someone very special…
Appreciating just having someone so special, so lovely to hold discussion…
Grateful for being blessed with such a loving person
With whom I could share my time, my life and my being…

Grateful for being married to such a beautiful soul…
Grateful for being in love and being loved…
Grateful for being blessed with the ability to appreciate this love
For this makes life more meaningful and worthy of living…
Grateful for love, for without it I am lost…

It is awfully quiet here…
The silence is so definite and overbearing
My feelings can not sense the silence…
But somehow I can tell of the empty silence

Engulfing me like a shroud…
But leaving no sense of touch or contact
My nerves reach out…
Striving and straining to sense the surrounding
Perplex by the void senseless sensation…

I think but I can not think
I sensed somehow, though I can not sense
That I am cocooned over by void of silence
I can not feel…
Please do not ask me how I know…
For I do not know, but know somehow.

I feel nothing…
Not even me, myself or I
In that moment when time seems to freeze
And you are left in silence devoid of feelings
When you can not even feel you…
Senses feelings are phantoms here

The white powdery stuff drizzled down slowly and softly
Touching the ground with no sound or disturbance
But quietly nestled together as they create a breath taking sight
Oh beauty and majestic covering for the earth surface.

This is the first snow fall for this winter…
As I looked, a glimpse of how it use to feel  glides by
My consciousness gradually recalls those wonder feelings
I remembered the sense of wonder…
The awesome sublime feeling evoked by those white fluffy snow.

As we grow older our capacity for wonder tends to diminish
Time, life or something I can’t quite pinpoint…
Seems to steal from us the ability to thoroughly enjoy
The simple wonders life presents us with every day…
Moment by moment we miss the wonder…
The awesomeness, the beauty…

Ah… I was there again…
This first snow somehow melted past my crusted mind
It is magical and full of refreshment…
But I can feel it gradually fads away like a mirage…
A feeling I had, but it’s slipping away…
I thought I had it…

Maybe, just maybe it would resurface again…
Maybe I’m the one drifting away…
Maybe I’m trying too hard…
The moment, ha the moment of the first snow…
I must rest now and relish the wonders…
This first snow brings along…
Ah… how sublime…