Was it death that stole you away
Or was it you that bid life farewell?
Tell me, oh tell me…
I look at life, all I see is disillusionment…
For life without you is not the same…

No; life without you will never be the same…
Death, disillusion is all I feel and see
My heart faint and trembles within me…
How would I make it through this.
Life’s path seems dark and grayed over by death…

God, you that understand and permits both life and death.
Help me, thou helper of the helpless…
Open my eyes to see beyond this disillusion of death.
Help me to see the beauty he imparted while he lives…

Though I may see death and disillusion…
I know he sees beauty…
Beauty beyond description…
For he is gone to be with You in the great beyond…
What a sorrowful and joyous mystery…
Death, disillusion and beauty intertwine…

When the game seems to’ve changed to some other game…
Whose roles no longer matches the one you use to know…
What should you do, who do you turn for help?
Life seems to’ve thrown you a curve ball…
The known strangely now are unknown…

Where once there was laughter…
There, I now see a growing pain…
The answers are not forthcoming..
The questions are not yet formed.
All I feel is growing pain…

Nigeria, yes, I remember this country…
A country of great wealth yet crouched over by poverty
A country that exude peace outwardly, but beneath it lies tension of pain..
A land that has been endowed with abundant blessing…
Yet this same land consumes it’s inhabitants..
What a country of contradictions…

A place where greed seems to be the norm…
Greed has a way of turning blessings into curses
How could a country with so much potential for good be so blinded by greed?
The whole governmental infrastructure is infected by this hideous disease…
A disease called “GREED”
In their greed they forget how to provide common basic services…
Their police force have been reduce to legalized armed robbers.

Landing at Lagos Airport…
Every official seems to want bribe…
But why should I bribe you oh lazy and good for naught officials?
I observed in pity and dismayed at how far this country has regressed.
This once beautiful country…
Once the pride of Africa…
Has now regressed to such a repugnante state of being…

A country where religious passion burns hot…
But their passion is denude of love for their fellow human being…
Greed seems to’ve incapacitate their ability to love.
They can’t think beyond themselves…
for even when they tried, greed seems to deny them of that ability.
They’ve become slaves to their greed…

What a pitiful country you’ve become oh Nigeria…
A land that consumes it’s inhabitants
A country whose political leaders are thugs in disguise…
For they can’t see beyond themselves…
Their greed cursed them with a blurred vision…
Your inhumanity to one another will be your undoing…

Till you rid yourself of this disease called greed…
You will remain a country of low reputation…
A breeding ground for lowlives and uncivilized people.
Alas, there is still hope, and that hope is in…
Putting away your greed, and letting love thrive…
Then compassion will rise…
And the healing will begin…

I turned to looked at 2010…
It’s now a memory… A memory that will continue to drift away into the distant past
As we move further into this bold new future 2011

2010 was a very dynamic and interesting year…
It was a year filled with challenges, triumphs and some setbacks…
But in all, it was a year of great blessings for me..
A year where I experienced and saw the providential hand of God in motion

In motion not just arbitrary…
Rather in motion on my behalf.
God’s providence provides when there was no provision…
Opened doors where there was no door…
Make pathway for me to walk on in the middle of no where…
Favors from strangers chased after me, and I was lavished with abundant blessings.

Blessings, not because I deserved or merit them…
But God in His infinite wisdom chose to bless me out of His grace and mercy…
Hence, blessed though, boasting I dare not…
For these blessings are not of my deserving…
Rather of the Lord’s providential choice.

So as I step into this day 1-1-11
I looked back at 2010 with humble gratitude…
And looked forward to 20011 with strong hope and confidence, in God’s providence…
As the Lord bless, may I reach out and bless others with same fervor…

My experience tells me that time is more than just a linear progression.
My experience tells me that some times are richer than others…
Some faster and some more meaningful than others.
Though in my mind I know time to be linear and sequential…
My experience cries out  ”No, it is not so”

Time is always more than a linear, monotonous experience…
There are moments in life when time slows down…
And there are other moments when time moves faster…
Time… This linear yet convoluted, simple yet mystifying phenomenon…

How time flies when all is well and fun…
How time slows when hard circumstance comes visiting…
Time, you that create this discord between my mind and my experience…

The development of the characters, and their impact
Their struggles, their pains and final triumph…
Gosh, as we talk a certain feeling gradually rise from within me…
Aha, I’m use to this feeling, but the intensity is growing…

Yes, it is that feeling of appreciation…
Appreciation of something or someone very special…
Appreciating just having someone so special, so lovely to hold discussion…
Grateful for being blessed with such a loving person
With whom I could share my time, my life and my being…

Grateful for being married to such a beautiful soul…
Grateful for being in love and being loved…
Grateful for being blessed with the ability to appreciate this love
For this makes life more meaningful and worthy of living…
Grateful for love, for without it I am lost…

In the midst of all these busyness, and activities life and time move on…
taking me along, and here we are, in the last day of 2009…
I’m still the same, yet no longer the same at the same time.

Came into this year as a lone ranger, which I always was,
and which I’m still in some ways…
Getting ready to step out of it into 2010
as a married man, which is quite interesting getting use to.

When I looked back into 2009… All I can say is this.
It has been a very interesting year, fraught with lot of pain,
uncertainty, trials, joy, pleasure and some happy times.
All these put together bring about much growth…

I hope this growth, transforms me for the better…
As I bid farewell  to 2009 and step forward into the  unknown 2010…
May I intentionally focus on what is most pure in each person,
to see their highest and holiest potential…  So help me God!

I was there to dance…
Latin salsa, yes it was salsa
I felt a gentle breeze passed behind me…
I turned, and there she was, a paragon of beauty

The most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen…
I asked her for a dance…
To my surprise she said yes!
This is how it began…

I looked into her dark brown mysterious eyes…
I was forever trapped in her beautiful, lovely gaze
Mesmerized, stupefied and dazzled by her gentle smile…
Helplessly I confessed and asked if, if…
Ha… She said yes again, and I was forever lost in her

She the one that makes my heart tremble
The one that freezes my steps and melt my pride
The one that makes me shiver with love all over
The one that changed it all…

Indeed it’s been long since I last pen down my thoughts…
Not that I’ve not been thinking, but my mind has been preoccupied…
Busy with much complex and deeper thoughts that are very pointed and directed
toward the very special one.

The one whose world collided with mine, and ever since then, I’ve not been the same…
We collided, we merged and melded together…
Our both worlds engulfing each other to form a new world…
A whole new world is emerging where we not I is becoming the predominant.

Just trying to think…
My poor mind still trying to think.
But the heart does most of the thinking now…